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Random Evil Thoughts - Can Spiritual People Have Them and Still be Good?
Question on Healing:
Along my spiritual journey I’ve had bouts of anxiety of unworldly thing. Things that no one around me could really help me with. Out of nowhere I became overwhelmed with the possibility of demonic beings capable of possessing people or the possibility that I was being fooled only for my soul to be lost in the end. Very strange and far fetched things.
I know that accounts of possession have happened to people and it really got to me. It was strange because I’ve never been one to be that afraid to the point that it was really effecting my mentality. I’ve never went through anxiety like this before. Usually when there is a form of panic around me, I’m the one able to ease others worries.
However, it was like the fear of fear, the fear of weakness, and the fear of evil overcame me. With such a strong determination to be connected to the Divine, a sudden fear of evil grew within me.
For a while I was almost convinced that if those thoughts kept popping up, which they seemingly were…like a haunting and nagging force coming up the minute i found relief, that evil would truly consume me. I felt as though I was falling into a black hole of weakness, fear, and evil possession. Random thoughts of murdering someone close to me or suicide would haunt me.
I had no reason for this and no plans to commit either of these. The mere popping up of these thoughts of “what if i did that?” were what me. I’m by no means a violent person and never have been. I’m of a very quiet, gentle, and easygoing nature. Thankfully, I reasoned with myself, knowing that Godforce could be a rascal, for the sake of love and strength.
Anyway, such thoughts came back to me last night before going to bed. I tried to understand what would come of the souls who resisted the spiritual acceleration currently taking place. Having relatives who sometimes don’t understand me and my endeavors, I get paranoid about their souls specificially. But anyways such thoughts came back in a way that weren’t so personal, and I ultimately just feft lost.
Such thoughts like “What should I do next? How do I strengthen myself to resist resistance? How do I overcome the strangeness that could take place. I need help.”
Healing Facilitation Response:
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As with all other content on this website that is written by myself, this response represents a spiritual perspective and a personal viewpoint. None of the information at The Healthy Choices Wellblog is intended to replace any necessary mental health evaluation, counseling or treatment. Be wise with your mind.
One of the more difficult challenges in the awakening process is to embrace fully what it means, at a core level, if we are all related and connected.
It’s so easy to connect with what gives us bliss and joy; it’s harder to acknowledge the connection to those mindsets and collective consciousness thoughtforms that feel evil and dark.
Thoughts of suicide and murder, for example. If such are random, in my own experience of them, they are simply collective mindset frequencies I’m picking up. Usually, I pick up such thoughts when I’m already in a more dense vibration of being….if I’m upset over something, unhappy about my life for some reason, or worried over something, the thoughts are more apt to come.
There are times when such thoughts do, indeed, signal a being in trouble and someone for whom some sort of intervention and treatment are necessary. When I counsel those who have such thoughts, I always begin with telling them that they should seek whatever form of mental health counseling and treatment that seems indicated, if at any time the thoughts begin to feel like something you are aligned with and could act on.
Random thoughts are one thing. Energized, emotional and detailed thoughts are another.
As for suicide thoughts, I don’t know a Light Worker who has been awakening since 1988 or so who hasn’t had them, both because it’s always in the field and because, well, we remember what it’s like not to live in duality and form. We remember being formless and only Spirit. When you remember that, it can become more challenging to stay here. It isn’t so much a thought of suicide as a longing to go back home.
I would not venture to enter the mind of the mental health professional or the doctor here and am only speaking from a metaphysical, spiritual perspective.
I believe that it is normal for people to have these thoughts, even well-educated, fairly happy and spiritually aware people. Why? Because we are all part of the interwoven human thread of consciousness and as long as one of us thinks this way, all of us are effected. It’s the butterfly’s wing. The affect may vary greatly, depending on how much of a density of vibration we already carry and feel comfortable in living with.>
It’s normal also for fear of evil to exist. Possession, regardless of how it may look on the outside, is an agreement. It is usually a very unconscious agreement, possible because of vibrational resonance that we are not aware of within us or past life connection that contain some unresolved factor.
What if I did that?
To consider what we are capable of is also a normal reaction for a Spirit living in human density and with complete free will. It is when we become aligned with that thought which carries the frequency of evil that acts of evil occur.
If I were having your thoughts, I’d look deep first into my relationship with the people I’m thinking about hurting. I’d ask if there is any current life or past life issue that is unresolved between us. I’d also keep releasing my fear and moving more into love about the whole situation. I would say “I am having these thoughts” and “I know I’m not these thoughts” and “I choose love”.