2012 – the shift is not what I thought it would be
by N J Howell unless otherwise noted
The Year of Global Transformation?
Like so many others who have been spiritual conscious for a while this decade, I looked forward to 2012 with tremendous joy. I knew it was going to be the most significant year of my personal experience with earth, as well as the most significant year for earth as a planet.
And that is true, at least for me.
However, the way things have shifted has been a total surprise.
I don’t know if I can articulate the difference. I assumed I’d feel as if I were in “the new earth” we’ve been creating and moving toward. I assumed I might feel less connected to 3-d reality and feel as if I were leaving it.
What is happening is quite the opposite.
For the first time in my 57 years here this time, I feel as if I can actually just live a “normal” and uncomplicated life. I can work and play and just be here. I can finally rest from spiritual processing and spiritual awakening and the entire paradigm of “being of service”.
As I’m typing this and considering it, what is happening makes more sense than what I was assuming would happen. Like so many who have called themselves Lightworkers, I became exceedingly weary. In fact, I became so weary that I wanted to go home early. Not suicidal, please don’t misread. Just tired and homesick.
Now, I actually wake up excited and with a sense of fun and joy that I haven’t felt … well … maybe ever in my 57 years here in this incarnation. And it isn’t joy at some sort of paradise being revealed that would release me from the bonds of 3-d. No, it’s joy at being here, a 5-d being, in 3-d reality and watching that 5-d vibration keep rising the more I enjoy the 3-d.
Quite a paradox … and a fun one!
So, how has 2012 been for you so far? I’d love to hear.