What if everything is perfect?
by Neva J. Howell unless otherwise noted
Pondering the present moment
Throughout my life, I’ve had spiritually expansive periods where it just felt like everything was flowing and contractive periods where it felt like I was stuck, and everything was hopeless. I know I’m not unique in that regard; most everyone I talk with has expressed this feeling of a sort of inconsistency to this thing called life.
What I’m noticing these days is that I’m a bit more aware that I chose it. Whatever is going on, I chose it. Sometimes, that’s not something my personality self wants to see. My ego wants what it wants and that does not include not knowing, or not being able to control outcome.
It’s a paradox in that I do control it, just not at an ego level. The soul of me knows what it is doing. The ego of me doesn’t like not knowing at that level. I get it but damn it, that doesn’t make it any easier.
So, today, for today, I’m behaving as if I chose all of it. I chose the experiences that have brought me to this point in my life and I choose how I relate to all that experience for the rest of my life.
If I choose a reality where it is all perfect, that means I must be willing to let go of any struggle toward perfection. I’m already there, with all my seeming shortcomings. I’m perfectly me, in any present moment. The soul asks how could you ever be anything else? The ego says but, but, but, as it looks outside itself at the illusion of a world out there where perfect means something else.
What if perfect means authentic? If I am in alignment with my soul, I am living an authentic life. It may not always look pretty or how the collective ego mindset thinks it should look, but it’s real, it’s me and it’s perfect.
So, does this mean I just live any which way? No. It means I live in alignment with my soul, which will always be the way of the most light, love, joy, kindness and truth. Once the ego self can relax into that, the perfection of the creation can emerge. This is my point of being at the moment, living from that space.